I've given so much, because I know what its like
yearning to receive, praying to be thought of
feelings derived from painful moments
I give to be a blessing
but its actually borderline martyrdom
I've sacrificed my happiness to be a conduit
I've volunteered the good parts of me to undeserving causes
I've sympathized with others at the expense of my needs
I've take ten steps back so others could move forward!
I've smiled in the place of fear
I've dimmed ,my light, so he could feel like more of a man
I questioned my seat at the table when others felt uncomfortable.
I've done all those things and I'm not proud of 'em
but like Mrs. Carter says , the first time I said no , its like I never said yes!
That hits different
The audacity! they say
oh you think you're important?
you don't have time for me?
they quickly forget!
I refuse to apologize for blooming
I chose to grow where I was planted
and y'all ass wilted beside me
it was plenty of sun for you to suck up
but you were greedy
you wanted what was for me!
See God noticed
and the rays my blessing kept pouring
He said now is your time
and I graciously excepted
They asked and I said no
I got a bigger assignment
it requires my energy and focus
I'm stepping into my greatness
when I've moved forward
I'll reach back for you
just be ready so you can catch these rays too
its my turn now
I gave more than enough to you
